See you September

Thank you for the ride, September. Thank you for the thrills and chills, the highs and very lows. I am grateful and happy I lived through another birthday. The bittersweetness of a birthday without twin brother Mark physically around is on my mind actually all month and often throughout the year for many reasons, seasons, sports, news and weather updates, the laughter, loyalty and love.

Life goes on for 
those still living even though the mysteries of death, the why's and when loved ones transition into another existance is an age old heart aching experience shared by the living and the dead as well. 

THANK YOU

Thank you for the view, the love and peace, for creativity, for the people and places I love and for every breath, step, sunrise and sunset, the full moon, for laughter, for blessings of every kind and the gifts I take for granted but still take without hesitation. Thank you, Holy Spirit

THANK YOU

THANK YOU, For the love, the joy, the care, the sharing and being such an important part of my life. Great experiences are the bright spots in life and include fun, exciting challenges, triumphs and special moments throughout the ride of a lifetime!

Radio broadcasting is as wild and tame, nerve wracking and heart warming as one would imagine when one has the rare and wonderful opportunity to broadcast the music you love for the people you love. Music communicates a story, it conveys, heart wrenching or heart warming moments. Every emotion brought to the listener from any form, fashion or manner of heart ache about life and love lost or found, is laid bare. The voice and the lyrics become one and a musical alchemy is created, instrumentals also create a mood, be it  pensive, dark, lively, high spirited or melancholy.

Radio is something special when you are driving along, suddenly a song, that certain song or concerto, the words or rhythm bring you to tears. Your spirits are lifted or a forlorn longing is evoked. A sad story is sung about a tragic ending or new beginning, the exhilaration and excitation is thrilling and chilling. Music has done it's job to stir the soul, shake, awake, toss and turn you over, lift you up or drop you down to a contemplative humble place.

Radio is an amazing platform to lament, celebrate and frame the times of our lives, the experiences and people, the quirky, kooky, crazy, incredible, indelible, lovable, forgettable and unforgettable people, places and things, we are all about. 

Thank you, Radio, you have been, currently remain and will be a big part of my story. For now, keep on playing the music, the memories follow or are created while we listen in the car, in the house, in the backyard, in any situation you can think of where a radio playing great tunes would be a perfect addition and great company. 📻🎜🎝

Thoroughfare

It's been a while. I have missed you like a mother misses her child. I think about you often and hope you know how much I appreciate you in my life. We keep in touch by quick flashes of expression in other social media platforms, but I know it is not enough when you are here with open arms and an open heart on the ready to write it out. Thank you. I feel an indebtedness to the powerful resources you offer me as I look the other way. I pray, a sincere thoroughfare is being created at this very moment with these very words jumping on the surface of the screen onto this boxed set of thought and expression. I have missed your pliability and all the possibilities. I carry you around like an unopened big box of crayons waiting to be opened and used in the best way possible.

We exchange and share ideas with words and take them personally as if we own each letter that forms each thought and expression. Places words take us and bring us back to, with each personal custom made to order and fit our needs in a moments notice or without notice, like when one speaks before thinking which can cause problems, when you realize you should not have said something, after you say it.

Sincerest apologies for not connecting with you on a regular basis. It has been too long since we have sat together and complimented each other as nicely as we could. Moving forward and away from recent lack of posts into time to reflect on things, life, love, loss, light, darkness, doubt, despair, faith, hope, Grace.  I knew it would feel great to be in here with you again, I was right. Sigh. Thank you💗

Beautiful Companion

How grateful I am for you in my life. THANK YOU for being the perfect creature you are, for your faithful companionship, your trust in me and the unconditional love you bless me with. I appreciate you so much and would be very sad without you. The joy you have brought into my life and continue to bring is as bright and beautiful as the sunniest day known to the world.

Your quiet, simple presence fills me with comfort and peace just as your humble heart and soul settles my storms. Even while you yourself are afraid of thunder and lightening we stay close to protect each other as I repeat to you; "It's OK, it's OK".  We manage to see each other through the chaotic moments that seem bigger than both of us. I take refuge in you dear dog. Time and time again you come around like a ship looking for the lighthouse to light your way. Don't you know it's you who lights my path just as all furry angels on four legs will do. 

No judgement ever, only what feels like pure love and loyalty defined. You give meaning to the whole point of having and caring for a pet. "A pet" seems like a mere word with only the slightest description of what you truly mean; which is an awesome being who blesses me everyday with your sweet, unassuming ways. To look into your precious eyes is like looking into a little bit of heaven where all creatures big, little, furry or bald, wet, wild, tame, domesticated and feral go when their lives are done here on earth. Your unpretentiousness has been a guiding light for me and a constant reminder to simply be true to myself taking one step at a time, one sip of water, one bite of food, one kiss, hug, bark, walk, run, nap, moment of fun at a time. My beautiful companion how very precious you are.

Full Moon Easter Eve 2018

More than anything I want to thank you for being there for your lovely light the shadows you

cast in the night render a calm and peaceful feeling from what I can tell. I am grateful for your presence in my life after all these years like a loyal friend, comforting and reliable.

Thank you for the way you look at me so peacefully and soothing, reassuring with the strength of the sun. I believe we will remain connected quietly, stoically, definitively forever. Even when the clouds obscure the view I know you are there like a faithful companion somewhere in the wings.

You cross the sky so gracefully while emitting the light of a thousand stars. The ultimate dance of the Cosmo's, consistent, amazing and miraculously choreographed. Time and space, matter, as brilliant as barely there, weather seen or unseen through the ages bearing witness to every drop of joy and pain, the best and worst behavior of earths inhabitants. A divine presence that extends beyond complete understanding yet studied and watched, anticipated through the ages with the eagerness of a child waiting for a gift. I welcome you with an open heart and soul with enthusiastic appreciation, mindful and willing to participate in the gifts you offer to us all.

Dear Mom

Sunday, August 28th, 2016, you would have turned 91 years of age. We gathered to celebrate your life, we laughed and cried, sang and milled about recalling your courage as a single mother and the lessons you taught us. We talked about what a great role model you have been and what a good person you will be remembered as. While we missed your physical presence I know you are at peace resting in a state of perfection with Mark by your side.

My big sister, Sophie, found this laminated prayer among Moms' belongings.

Mom wrote the names of her children around the edge. My sister, Marcie

read the prayer at Mom's burial site on August, 28th, 2016.

I miss you Mom, from a place deep in my core, from a place that is empty yet filled with love and longing. I see your smile, your frown, your beautiful face, the goofy ways you crossed your eyes to rattle my cage and snap me out of myself. I hear your voice so clearly and feel the gentle warmth of your soft hands. I believe you are with me throughout the day and in the still of the night. You are in my heart and soul. I need you to help me through life just as you did in the most subtle and spectacular ways, when you were here in your physical form.

The times you come to mind are frequent and permeates throughout the day-in day-out grind, just as before. I know you are present in more ways than I can fully comprehend. What a special place you will always have in my very being. I hope I am a good reflection of you and your great spirit, your compassion, your sense of fairness and kindness. In the good times and fiery times we loved each other through them all as the love and respect prevailed and you kept us all in tact. Your children, family and friends revere you and look up to the sold citizen you were, your sense of decency and loyalty to those you loved and cared for are still in place.

I love you so dearly Mom, the layers of life we shared, the faith you maintained throughout your life on earth proved time and again how important it is to hold on to hope, to do the right thing and get on with life peacefully. I hold on to you tightly yet tenderly and I am happy for you where you are in all of your glory with the Lord, where you prayed to be some day. I am thankful for you that we were appointed to one another and I am grateful for the hard and soft lessons I learned from you. THANK YOU MOM! I know your first birthday in Heaven was something wonderful, even more wonderful than the precious memories of you.

Sincerely yours,

Marlena

Moonlit Night

You are so cool, so big and beautiful.

Your light makes me feel good as you shine like crystal, everything seems clean and clear. You cast a bright silver glow on the concrete, even Boxer girl, Sunni Marie with her gold furry back glistens as you cover her with your shiny brilliance. Music sounds better, the air is fresh and you seem to be at the center of it all.

Thank you!

Thank you for blessing me with your radiance still, after all these years.

I simply never get tired of seeing you and reaching out through you to everyone- to emit love and blessings, prayers for peace within everyone and for everyone without it, to far reaching areas in need of light and goodness.

Until Next Year!

Sorry to see you go JULY... see you next year! Thank you for the memories, these past several weeks have been like the 31 flavors of life; taking the good, sad, bad, ugly and amazing and coming out alright.. the long sometimes lonesome road of life unravels like a spindle of ribbon, the surface is smooth as it is scorching hot with rough patches along the way. Life rolls on from bumpy road to smooth as silk. The summer would never be complete without you and your well lit days and lingering nights, so Thank You for coming around. I always look forward to seeing you and can hardly wait to find out how you unfold. Thanks again!
*Remember those flicker rings from the 60s, when you moved them one way you saw one image and if you turned the ring a different way, you would see somehing else. I thought the holy grail of flicker rings was the one shown here.