Day in, Day out

3/23/2009 About the day... What's it all about? A typical, uneventful day... the kind of day that seems to move along at a so-called normal pace. The usual quick choices to make, the money to make, save, spend, time to invest in or waste, long-term decisions or situations to ponder, places to go, people you see, love, work with, wait for, think about, play with, talk to, hinder, help. The clothes you wear, ever changing or unchanging thoughts you think, food you eat, lives you touch. The music, for me, a massive backdrop for each day, month, year, era in my life, it paints a vivid, masterful portrait. Time lines drawn, landmarks made... a musical score to the motion picture we take the leading role in, and of course particular to only you and the people, places & experiences in your life. The day in, day out things seem to take care of themselves, inconsequential... but end-up defining what we once thought of as mundane and predictable days of our lives. The layers of days upon days, wrap around us like a cocoon, incubating unassumingly, and then... perspective appears like a caterpillar shedding the unneccessary and transforms into the butterfly with wide-spanned-wings, colorful and special... another change of season, lesson learned, life happens. An alchemy of simple sand and pebbles turn into monumental, massive columns, life changing, important, pivotal parts of our lives... leaving you better or worse, burdened or blessed for the wear and tear. Day in, day out... indeed.

Relentless- Part I

I call it a major crossroads, a time when I got caught-up in the "complexities" of life or least what I had conjured up in my head as such. I wanted answers, answers and more answers... Then I realized answers are; 1) Sometimes found in the questions and stare us right in the face 2) Would take me a lifetime to discover 3) Elusive 4) Better left alone.
To make a long story short when I let go and let, what I perceive to be above, beyond and far more than me, help me stay the course, I knew I would survive the absurdity, the harshness as well as the breathtaking beauty of this world. Arriving at this place however meager or magnificent was not easy. No... confusion and I were at a stand-off, I stared right down the barrel of pitch black, dank, depressing, darkness. What answers was I looking for, not being sure of the questions? It was a splintering, juncture, a turn-pike in flux. Through a great deal of trial and error... some lessons learned softly, some hard and some still being taught... Ooh, figuring things out, putting the pieces together, making things fit, to make rhyme and rhythm out of the unreasonable... sometimes... Yeah... not very pretty.
Meantime, I am happy to report, when I recharge, renew, regroup, retool, reevaluate, and reassess, who and what it's all about... I rediscover over and over; The more I know, the more I don't know. Comfort, solice and peace of mind is available even tho' the answers may be painfully obvious... elude me, and sometimes collide with the questions... More in the order of bumping, bruising, banging, crashing, clash-bam-booming head-on, leaving me for dead in the wake of my muddled messes or mistakes because I didn't recognize the obvious remedy or resolution... Search & rescue me from myself. Life's episodes, traumas, mishaps and misunderstandings aim to grab and toss me around like a rag doll, by the scruff of my neck... then dust me off & expect me to walk tall, sure footed, steady and tread lightly. Proceed w/caution, safety first or simply throw caution to the wind, wreckless and abandon.
Turns out... peace of mind and heart is doable. I wonder sometimes tho'... at what cost? What value do I place on finding my way in the world? It holds true... When all is said and done... My faith... in something, someone, a being, entity; G*D, Grace, The Holy Spirit. Life saver, Soul Searcher, Heart Mender and Merry Maker for all who seek the way, the light and the truth... in fact, the very armour, weaponry & protection from choppy waters I encounter. In my pursuit of Happiness... My relentless Hope when feelings of helplessness creep in ~

Time & Space

OK, This can be nice and easy, simple, smooth, direct, straight to the point or we can make it complicated, snarly, gnarly, dastardly, big, bold, brazen and beastly... Let's go with simple. It's like this:

And They Live Happily Ever After.

I would very much like to know everything in the world is OK. I wish it were so. Every one lives happily ever after. Pain and suffering are kept to a minimum. From the great creatures who walk the earth and fly the skies to the small who crawl or cry... oh, to be absolutely spared from harm. Hunger, hate, war, crime, injustice, only in one's imagination and never manifested. Humankind lives in a utopia and harmony is the order of the day. Disease, discourse, disrespects dissolves, extinguishing itself out before it has a chance to do any damage. Darkness in our thoughts instantly heeds an internal warning that danger, possible destructive attitude in any form or manner attempts to penetrate the peace in our hearts and in our heads. Brain waves rush to stabilize the static negativity and moves faster than the speed of sound. The mighty, well equipped/enlightened subconscious quiets and calms any signs of an internal storm. Peace of heart and mind prevail once again, always on the ready alert for signs or symptoms of distress that might attempt to threaten the interiors perfect design and function. The psyche is serene again. Serenity, so sweet yet durable... and necessary as air and water, protected and maintained for strength, a simple yet complex sustenance required of everyone, simultaneously, always, everywhere, without exception.

Humanity is elevated to a place in time that can now intrinsically ignore harshness in any form. A new dimension of existence takes over, negative behavior is passé. The beauty and essence of all souls are once again on fire, lit with love, the light in our eyes shines a radiance that can only be described as pure, peaceful, powerful, perfect, a place of privilege that takes-up residence in the center of our being... and they/we/you/me live happily ever after.

Sadly, the video embedded here is a more realistic depiction of the more recent state of affairs in our land of milk and honey. We remain hopeful and optimistic, however, that change is on the horizon, that my own attitude is adjusted accordingly and that I continue to keep it together, ride out storms, somehow find it in me to be a blessing and send goodness where ever to whomever, in whatever capacity or increments is most needed.